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[14 Mar 2011|06:26pm]
• Release play therapy is a structured play therapy that was developed by David Levy in 1938 for children who have gone through specific traumatic events. (VanFleet, Sywulak, Sniscak, 1953)

• In release therapy, a therapist places the child in a setting of security and support by easing them in through free play. The therapist then brings in play materials that are necessary to recreate the traumatic event so that the child processes the negative thoughts and feelings associated with the trauma in a safe environment. (VanFleet, Sywulak, Sniscak, 1953)

• Levy’s approach is based on a belief in the abreactive effect of play and eventual release of the pain caused by the trauma. (VanFleet, Sywulak, Sniscak, 1953)

• Levy identified three types of release therapy:
• The release of aggressive behavior. Such as throwing toys, sucking on a baby bottle or popping balloons.
• The release of feelings in situations involving sibling rivalry.
• The release of feelings in specific situations. (Astramovich, 1999)

• Gove Hambidge expanded on this last type of release therapy by his own structured approach by recreating specific traumatic events within the play session. (Astramovich, 1999)

• This helps the child to work through the unresolved feelings attached to the trauma and eventually has a release of the anxieties associated with it. The child then engages in free play to bring them to a comfortable level again. (Astramovich, 1999)

• Levy also emphasizes that this type of therapy should only be used selectively and only if the child’s problem is definite and was absolutely caused by a specific traumatic event. (Astramovich, 1999)
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[29 Jan 2011|01:37am]
l F. DuBois
Clear Window
Today

and even when it does pay off, it will STILL be work
and it will STILL hurt
and those are the moments that you hope to god you love yourself enough to make it through
you have to wake up, look at yourself in the mirror and believe that you are gorgeous. because you are
you have to tell yourself that every single day
even when you dont feel it

yeah that's true

men from all around the would could tell you that you are gorgeous, and that you are beautiful, and that they love you, but until you feel all of those things about yourself you will never be able to understand what they mean
and why they mean it

I really have worked on that a whole lot
I think I'm good looking, know I"m cute and really respect and care for myself. I can realize all these things. When all these people don't appreciate what I have to offer then it makes me feel jipped out.

its not about those people
its not about anyone else but you
you are the only star of your life
the only leading role

I know I'm a great person I just keep getting.....my ass kicked.

and when you are up there on the stage, its not about what the audience thinks, its about what you get out of it

yeah that's true

this sucks to hear, but I can promise you that your ass will get kicked for the rest of your life
everybodys will
our asses get kicked around until we die
so, what you have to do, is say fuck it to whoever is kicking you and find the good things inbetween the kicks

that's true, I've been trying so hard

and, with all of that
you have to give yourself some credit

I definitely do
or at least try to

you decided to pick up youre whole life and move to a new school
HUGE move
but you did it

i did do it

you did it because you knew it would be best for you
you said fuck it to all the kicks and you found something better
you literally just flipped off new york city

that's true, I wanted to do it for a while but I was scared

how does that feel??

it's liberating

exactly
and dont just say its liberating and forget about it

I enjoy living in cambridge

wake up tomorrow and remember that YOU decided to move schools
that you did all of the work, despite what everyone else said, and found something better

I definitely did, that's true
I find the emptiness in...you know
I literally was miserable at sva last semester and you made me feel better and it gave me strength to do what I was supposed to do because I had A LOT to look forward to

and you still do
you have an entire life ahead of you

I know but michael....really, it still sucks

I know

like literally. I love what you're saying and you're very peaceful and wonderful
but it's just like....I don't think you'll understand what it was like to think I had something to look forward to involving you and just having it end
like, I thought it would be better and I thought you'd be supportive and I thought I was helpful and did well and now I am going through something slightly hard that I need support for (I'm not saying it's ANYTHING NEAR what you are still going through, and I would never compare it) but honestly, I feel alone and jipped and under appreciated
it's like, I never gave up on you and you gave up on me
and no matter what you say it will always be like that
like literally, I was having a horrible time moving in and adjusting and I had ALL THAT also to deal with and it was like emotionally paralyzing.
I'm not trying to be mean or make you feel bad because you can't make me feel better
but that's how I feel sometimes

Sarah, I could apologize a million times and tell you how awful I honestly do feel
but none of that is what you want to hear

and you can say that you've been through the break up process before and can understand but I just....invested my whole heart emotionally and did so much to try to be with you and was so just....everything I had.
you can feel awful all you want but you can't even...understand. and I'm sorry.

then what do you want me to do?

I don't know, you told me to open up to you
and I know you don't like it but it's the harsh truth

I think I should go now

michael, are you mad at me?

no Im not mat at you
I just dont know if it was a good idea that we started talking

I'm sorry, I do want to talk to you
and I feel better seeing how you're doing sometimes
and I'm getting through it
but I realize maybe it wasn't meant to be if I can just so almost everything in my heart and that's not enough. so much that i never thought I could do and can't imagine how...nevermind
do almost*
like I am an extraordinary person and I have always been and always will be
and will always be that person
and I'm sorry I just wasn't the person that you want to be with who you think can make you happy

sarah, please dont say that

why is that so hard to hear?
Michael is offline.
Michael is online.

and I am saying this with all my whole-hearted honestly. without resentment

okay

those were very emotional things to say but michael, it's the truth.
and you can be happy all you want, and I want you to be happy and find some resolution in your life since there is a lot of conflict and pain and stress.
but I was absolutely incredible to you and could feel your pain so much

you were incredible to me, and I honestly cannot thank you enough for that
I really do hope you find happiness too Sarah
I really honestly do

Thank you but I just...
I will never regret how I treated you but I will always feel like it was very fully and ever will be appreciated to the amount that it should have been. that's not mindfully your fault
but I will feel like that
it was never fully*

Im sorry Sarah
and I hope someday you remember some of the good things that I did for you too
for now, Im going to go

I do remember and I appreciate all of it a lot but you breaking up with me is the ultimate form of rejection of everything wonderful I have to offer

Sarah, Im going to go now
I hope you have a good night

Ok goodbye, Michael. don't block me

why would I block you?

It's just, I hope you always fully understand what you've done. You told janine that and apparently I'm a great cuddler too.

what?

That's just the conversation you had with her about everything in general

okay

Yes
I say this all without anger nor resentment. It's just how it is I guess

okay
well goodnight Sarah

Ok goodnight, Michael
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